| why i love heychris.[stolen] |
[Nov. 15th, 2008|04:21 am] |
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Leave home
Leave familiar
Leave the course you're on because you never wanted to be there in the first place.
Leave him
Leave her
Leave because they don't appreciate your love, now do do they really?
Leave working for someone else's dream
Leave the shitty scene
Leave your comfortable couch
Leave convention
Respectability
Responsibility
Obligation.
Leave the guilt
sorrow
abuse
violence
rape
Leave it in the past because fuck them for attempting to ruin your future.
Leave apprehension
Leave intimidation
Leave "what's right", because who are they to tell you anyway.
Leave glasgow
Leave new york
Leave miami
Leave chicago
Definitely leave LA, because there is an adventure
a plane
Bus
Train
School application
Job application
away.
Leave soul killing jobs
Leave negative people
Leave dead relationships
You are wasting your time
Your life
Your talent
Your love
Your opportunity
And with each passing day you slowly lose your shine
your glow
your spark
your fight
your heart.
You talk about it all the time.
Just fucking leave...
And find yourself.
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[Apr. 28th, 2008|07:53 pm] |
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"Children broken by the world
become the adults most likely to change it."
-Frank Warren. |
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| there's something |
[Aug. 7th, 2007|01:48 am] |
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about sitting on playgrounds and nuzzling and kissing.
something. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 23rd, 2007|09:42 pm] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | taking back sunday. | ] |
i fucking hate my mom. |
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| well- |
[May. 2nd, 2007|10:11 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | limp bizkit | ] |
-6 inches and some new lowlights later,
i feel...
ready to run my own life. |
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| this WHOLE week, |
[Apr. 30th, 2007|11:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | blink 182- dammit | ] |
everytime i encounter someone one on one, i'm going to compliment them.
today turned out well, i thought that would be weird but i suppose it's weirder to
compliment guys then girls.
it's fun though :]
It's alright
to tell me
what you think
about me
I won't try
to argue
or hold it
against you
I know that
you're leaving
you must have
your reasons
The season
is calling
and your pictures
are falling down
The steps that
I retrace
the sad look
on your face
The timing
and structure
did you hear
he fucked her?
A day late
a buck short
I'm writing
the report
On losing
and failing
when I move
I'm flailing now
And it's happened once again
I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up
Well I guess this is growing up
And maybe
I'll see you
at a movie
sneak preview
You'll show up
and walk by
on the arm
of that guy
And I'll smile
and you'll wave
we'll pretend
it's okay
The charade
it won't last
when he's gone
I won't come back
And it'll happen once again
You'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
And sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone
And you've been there for too long
To face this on your own
Well I guess this is growing up
Well, I guess this is growing up [4x]
Well, I guess this is growing up
BREAKDOWNS CAN CREATE BREAKTHROUGHS.
THINGS FALL APART SO THINGS CAN FALL TOGETHER.
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 17th, 2007|09:52 pm] |
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things have come and gone.
good and bad.
i've lost the will to tell about them all.
we're on a break. |
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| i'm going to be so god damned poor. |
[Mar. 13th, 2007|12:57 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  dying | ] |
i'm exhausted.
i can't sleep.
picked up my prom dress today- 100.
developed some pictures for my art fair submission- 5
went tanning- 20
[it went very well... and i think i burned my nipples]
i have like 23 bucks in my wallet;
rent thus far- 50
ipod fund- 120 or so
[fuck, i'm never going to get in at this rate]
ryan still owes me 55 for the prom ticket
which i'm using to get my dunks;
i'll probly make 50-60 total for tom. and weds.
i have to spend at least.. 20 for ryan's birthday, SANS present,
since i have no idea what to get him.
i get my check thurs, which should be very nice.
buttttttttttt i have to save up for prom too.
god. |
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| RIP |
[Mar. 2nd, 2007|03:54 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | mono- life is mono | ] |
BRADLEY 'TSO' DEVINE.
1985-2007.
Police ID Driver Found In Vehicle In River Des Peres
Created: 2/28/2007 11:27:03 AM
Last updated: 2/28/2007 3:10:40 PM
(KSDK) - Police have identified the driver of a vehicle that caught fire and rolled into the River Des Peres Monday morning as Bradley Devine, 22, of Sunset Hills.
Police said the vehicle was on McCausland Avenue near Arsenal Street when it went off the road around 1 a.m. The vehicle caught fire before rolling into the River Des Peres.
he hit a barrier, and after it rolled into Des Peres, it burned for over an hour before anyone found it.
he got into a car accident on monday;
i don't want to talk too much about this yet.
it feels surreal,
but then the truth makes me feel like shit.
i wish i would've kept talking to you.
i wish i would've gone to one fucking princeton show
like i promised.
i'll always remember that your uncle lives right by me
and that you worked with meth addicts.
the boy with the mini van that drove all over imperial
and got lost, just to sell me a ticket.
i want to bring him something for his grave.
idk. |
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| enjoy yourself, i'll just lay here! |
[Feb. 20th, 2007|01:04 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | "thunder"- boys like girls | ] |
recap, recap!
12th- cartel/cobra/boys like girls:
amazing, front, saw elia and though pre-pubescent bitches,
saw p-unit's dan dan dan <3
almost broke my back crowdsurfing.
13th- snow day
14th- snow day; work.
YEAH.
15th- ronnie day:
amazing.
life is boring.
i love doug and ellie. |
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| profound? |
[Feb. 11th, 2007|11:22 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | red hot chilli peppers | ] |
we have probably, the cutest busser coming in to work next week.
his name is jake, and go figure, he's mark's friend or something.
hottie hot hot.
today, the very last customer of the night
was an old man about 70, i suppose
and his 50 year old son.
his son was a freaking slob, and went through about 20
scratch cards and pull cards and hid them in the dessert menu.
and when he went to pay, pulled out a huge, crisp
stack of fives. can you say gambling addict?
it was de ja vu. it made me wonder why he still lived at
home and his parents still supported his addiction.
hm. |
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| i'm in ur h0use, killin' ur kidz! |
[Feb. 5th, 2007|11:19 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bored | ] |
i am tired
and
g-g-g-grumpy.
hi dumbass that bought
6 16 oz. 180's.
speeding off my ass much? |
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| breakdowns lead to breakthroughs |
[Jan. 28th, 2007|11:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sniffly | ] |
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| | billie jean. | ] |
today wore me out.
basically, it was a day that made me really think about who
i need in my life.
i've come to three realizations:
1. ryan means more to me than anyone i know.
2. i need to stop hanging out with shady/shitty people
and make/hang out with new friends.
3. doug & i need some hang time this week.
i want some barbecue... |
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| catch & release |
[Jan. 26th, 2007|11:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | lovelinnnne | ] |
saw catch and release tonight with ryan.
it was a really good movie, i really liked it.
it made me wonder:
who would you chose:
the person that you're now falling in love with
or the person who just told you that they've loved you for 6 years?
i'm dead tired.
i need to gym it up again for ryan's dance on the 17th. |
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| UR A 10 |
[Jan. 24th, 2007|11:15 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | yearbook | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | rejuvenated | ] |
life, thus far, hasn't been THAT interesting;
i have a huge photo project to work on,
and that's about it.
and oh yes, on monday, i found out that
I GOT ACCEPTED INTO KENDALL COLLEGE :D
and i get $1,000 up front every quarter for grades & ACTs.
i love necco sweethearts. |
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| snowflake; snowflake. |
[Jan. 21st, 2007|10:51 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  giddy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | gym class heroes- cupid's chokehold | ] |
today is ryan and i's 3 month.
:D
:D
:D
anyways- slow week;
LAME ASS winter coronation,
but we looked damn good.
got some snow, but not enough to get off of school,
i'm sure.
damn. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 15th, 2007|09:33 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | good | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | beyonce | ] |
ryan and i went shopping today,
he got: a pair of skinny fit levi's; shirt from h&m;
and a pair of converse.
i got: a pair of skinny black pants; a pair of brown plaid pants;
and ryan bought me that purple dress shirt and some nars eyeliner.
that boy spoils me so muuucchhhh.
it's so strange, but it's sweet. |
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| augustana |
[Jan. 13th, 2007|08:42 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | augustana- boston. | ] |
alright, so augustana is coming to saint louis in exactly
two weeks to blueberry hill, and sadly will be performing
in the duck room.
the duck room, nice as it is, is the death of all concerts,
because it is 21+ ONLY.
UGH.
so, i decided, i'm going to go to the loop that night,
and pretty much sit behind blueberry hill,
try to see if i can hear augustana,
and try to meet them afterwards.
crazy.
in march, however, on the 9th,
augustana will be performing at this square
in joliet, IL for a festival with the fucking goo goo dolls,
so i'm going to see if i can go.
its a 280 mile, 4+ hours drive though.
jesus.
OR they will be performing at the eastern illinois university,
in charleston, IL on march 4 which is about 3 hours away. AH
everything else is 4+.
bahhh! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 8th, 2007|08:48 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | drained | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | the verve- bittersweet symphony. | ] |
12 fucking days until the winter coronation.
are you kidding me?
12 fucking days to sweat my ass off,
and tone up.
today, ry and i hit the gym up for an hour and a half.
it was crazy. i'm sore, and i only got 2 and 1/2 hours of sleep.
YEAH.
note: last time [a few weeks ago]
i weighed myself and i was 134.
now, i'm 128.5.
AH. |
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